26 December 2007
I wish I could eat.
Have you ever missed someone so much that it feels like the entirety of your insides are compressing and leaving a huge empty space where everything that's keeping you alive is supposed to be? Every breath you take is an enormous effort because your heart and lungs feel so heavy. You become lightheaded and feel like you're going to pass out because it's so hard to breathe. It's completely miserable. Utter torment. Sometimes you think you might just die. It comes in waves. One moment you're fine. You're laughing and smiling. Then suddenly, it hurts so bad you feel like it's going to kill you.
This sounds so dramatic but if you've ever loved and have faced the possibility of love lost then you know it's absolutely true. The pain is almost unbearable.